Dec
16
What a huge rainstorm! Looks like some sort of hurricane or something. Yet it's somehow amazing, the whole nature of it spinning and sucking in the earth. Scary yet amazing.
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What a huge rainstorm! Looks like some sort of hurricane or something. Yet it's somehow amazing, the whole nature of it spinning and sucking in the earth. Scary yet amazing.
Oct
15
Would you just look at this brilliant piece of engineering? Not to mention its architecture.
It reached up to 1 billion to build this super marvel. Amazing.
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Sep
12
I've always dislike the fact when Bruneian drivers doesn't give a rat's ass about other drivers, especially to the ones driving an old shabby car. Exhibit A - just look at my car. I'm well aware that it's not shiny, nor does it reaches to 140 km/h nor does it look posh or anything you want to label it. But hey, it's still a car, and i still could drive just about anywhere i want. And on a brighter note, i don't have worry much if i scratch it against the road boundary thingy, or if i bend over a drain (not that i wish for it, hell no), because it's an 'antique' car that i don't have to fork out lots of money if scratched the exterior. Get it? I guess thats the good side about driving an old car.
As i was saying, other drivers, almost everyone of them; are quite rude. It's kinda hard for me to explain in detailed here, but you know what i mean. They're pretty much an ass on the road. Okay fine, i get the fact that there's an old shabby car in the road, an old 'kerita kaling' car blocking your so-called-highway. But so what? Just because that car is in your way, that doesn't mean you ought to be treating its driver like crap. Just because i couldn't see your annoyed face on the road, but that doesn't mean i'm not offended by your 'fast roaming' or 'kissing-my-car's-ass' kind of way. I'm aware that you intend to drive fast, but fuck it man, stop kissing-your-car-to-my-car's-ass! Go to the right lane if you want. I mean, that's what right lanes are for, isn't it? To overtook someone else's car. Have patience. Have some bit of respect. At least.
Now, that comes to a totally different story if i were driving a non-shabby car. I drove my next to kin's car the other day (well sometimes when i run errands for them), and i received a whole lot of different treatment from the drivers. Instead of typical 'rudeness' i get when driving the old shabby car, i received a 'neutral' aura from the drivers. Get it?
I've been driving for over a year, and the treatment i received never seem to change whenever i drive the old 'kerita kaling'.
Sigh, Bruneians are always like that - judge a book by its cover. In this case - judge a person by its car.
Or - judge a person's integrity by their status. If you're not well-known, then you're pretty much a dumpster.
Anyways, today a great friend of mine told me a story about integrity. My friend went to this textile place somewhere in Serusop, and overheard ruthless conversations between a Bruneian female customer and an Indonesian worker. The customer was complaining about the fact that the Indonesian worker couldn't live up to his/her promise. The Bruneian female was promised to get some piece of 'tudong' but she went bizarrely mad. She started to threatened the Indonesian worker (who knew nothing much), and called him/her awful names, "eh buduh ko ani, ko janji hari ani ada, macam-macam alasan ko ani! baik ko ambil tu! ku sue ko nanti, biar ko! tebayar ko kan?!"She basically shouted at him/her repeatedly. I mean shouted as in THE WHOLE customers in the shop turned their heads in disbelief.
That's how rude the Bruneian female customer was, she didn't even care about others eavesdropping on her, didn't even care about shame because all she ever wanted at very moment was - to get some piece of 'tudong'. That went on and on for about...i don't know, probably till that customer bled her throat, haha. But the funny thing is - it's all just because of 'tudung'. I bet she was so damn panicked she didn't have anything to cover her dyed hair for Raya HAHA. Sekadar. Now that's what i called - desperation calls for desperate measures.
But then again, this story isn't really accurate, perhaps i missed out on few vital points along the way, thus it turned out pretty bad in this post. But i do get the main story correct, which is this - just because she's a Bruneian, who earns up to 3K bucks per month, who doesn't know the true meaning of hardship; that doesn't mean she could mock, threaten or treat fucking rudely at that Indonesian, whose not even close to earning what she earns per month, whose barely living on a 12hours per day 24 days wages, who surely has no status in Brunei, whose just doing his/her job. Look, sometimes we have to understand certain circumstances, and accept it with patience. And there are some situations where we ought to be a bit angry at times because certain salespersons aren't doing their job correctly, like we used to say "sekadar nyawa-nyawa ikan durang bekeraja", now this we can 'push' them a bit. There are boundaries, okay?
I'm not saying just because this 'tudung' thing happened recently, but merely the fact that we have got to tone down, or even better stop this attitude of looking down on lower-standard people. I've come across this attitude way long before, but at that time i just didn't have the courage to voice out my thoughts. I know that it's easier said than done. Sometimes we can't control ourselves, we aren't aware of what our actions could potentially do to other people's feelings, we speak before thinking them thoroughly, and i guess that's our flaws. And i know most of us are hypocrites, thus i'm quite scared to point out more debatable thoughts, as i fear it would hit back on me.
Sure we're good at keeping a close relationship with family and friends, and about keeping a good integrity, but we're bad certain aspects of our lives. We always point out our friend's and foe's wrongdoings without even glancing our own personalities. Get it? What i'm talking about is both "tone down looking down at other lower-standard families" and "tone down being a hypocrite". Sure i'm being humanly possible as i can right now, being thoughtful and all, but i fear i would fall into the same pit as other hypocrite beings in later days. So...it's safe to say what has been said is enough. I'll stop here.
And oh, if i were a policewoman, or some sort of authority who could stop a car for speed-driving, i would be glad to do so (for just a while, as a hobby). Anyhoots, i always come across lorry-truck drivers speed-driving way over their 50 km/h limit. Sometimes i had to push the acceleration pedal more just to overtake those kind of lorries. And what's worse, those lorries-trucks overtook a saloon car! Hard to believe? Photos doesn't lie (unless photoshope-d, but that's a different story).
At one time, i deliberately used to drive in front of a lorry so freaking slow, like 45 km/h, just to test his impatience. I mean, those lorries and trucks have speed limits, isn't it?
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Sep
10
Good to know that our country already has a special group solely to guide young generations to achieve their projects. It's more like a investment agency or so. They trained you, polish your skills, and guides you to your mission. What kind of mission? Of course missions that would benefit our country. Here's their scope -| "Our mission is to contribute to Brunei Darussalam’s success as a land of opportunity for its people and all investors. |
| We will undertake our mission by focusing on new industries and economic activities that bring to our country new knowledge, new markets, new employment opportunities for our people. |
| We will focus on business clusters where Brunei Darussalam has competitive advantage and always strive to work in partnership with foreign investors, government agencies and local stakeholders." |
I'm honestly glad about this. I've heard about this agency before, but the sad thing is it took me a couple of years to notice them and their projects. They were set up in Nov 2001.
Future for us.
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Sep
08
I had a productive conversation with this man at my attachment place. He's the usual same guy whom my other attachment mates and i talked to in the last 2 weeks. He's a good old chap, taught us quite a couple of things. Anyways, we were talking about the development in Brunei. I asked him merely out of curiosity, whether he thinks that Brunei will ever develop with the likes of Singapore and all in terms of economy, structures and others.
Personally, i doubt if we ever will march forward and be as industrious as our neighboring countries. Sure we have the money from oil and gas, i mean we've got surplus of it, and could provide us vast amount of income for the next 15 years or more. Okay so we got the market for that area. But how about tourism, developments such as structural buildings, industrial market and all? Taking Singapore as an example, i honestly believe they achieved greater in those areas mentioned beforehand, i meant they're just a tiny lil bit of island with no natural resource to lean on - no water, no oil and gas, no rubber plantation. But still they could survive. All hail for Lee Kuan Yew.
I still figure how that country managed to be so powerful. But our country can do the same thing. Yes we can, i mean still have a weeee bit of hope for it. It may not be in 10 years, but yeah it'll take more than that.
Back to the opinion i asked from this chap - he reckoned that there are policies in our country and it's hard to do what like other countries are doing. Certain things to keep in mind are culture, preservation of tradition, religion and loyalty in Brunei (that's what i'd gather from his sentences, it was all jumbled up). Those policies are well held by our government, and are determined to preserve our culture. Hard to understand?
Okay lets elaborate more - imagine you have a well-grown developed country with massive economic developments, various trading connections with other countries. We call your country as Kassius. Kassius is more like the United States in the Pacific, HongKong and Japan in the South China Sea, and Singapore in South East Asia. What do they have in common? They're well-developed countries, they made their mark to the world that they can stand alone in the dark. They grow increasingly good (okay there are some downs...) in terms of economical market, educational programs, land usage, technology inventions, future plan and all sorts. Bottom line is - they're one heck of a country. Its people are given surplus opportunities, let it be career, political elections, freedom of night life and all. Why? Because their government opted to give freedom and chances to its society - they're thriving, ambitious, competitive, visionary, they're in a country full of opportunities where they pay taxes in every sorts of matter, they're the ones who make their country successful in certain ways. In other words, they're the leaders of their own land. It's more like - they work hard, they play hard. And when this massive freedom are given to the society, gradually in 20 years the feeling of 'overthrow each other' or 'freedom of speech' started to crawl out. And what happens if your country Kassius experience this kind? You as the sole leader/president, lose control of your own people. They want this, but you want otherwise. They'll rebel sooner or later, and it could lead to chaos. Your country Kassius could potentially lose its culture and the meaning of tradition. A revolution. Get it? Just get it, okay. I don't want to edit my 'essay'. Haha.
That's why priority is given to preserving cultures. That's why i think our country Brunei intends to be on 'moderate' rather than going for full 'blow' of developments. I guess to think about it, it's all down to political matter. You know what i mean...It's better not to dig deeper into that detail, haha.
I have a positive thinking on what our generation could do for Brunei, great ones - positive difference. Hey, im keeping a healthy mindset here.
Our young generations have the potential to develop our country, and our country have the potential to grow big (in a preserved way).
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Sep
06
Here's the thing - when you don't have much to do let it be at your attachment place or your real job, you tend to get tired super fast. It's not logic, yes. But when you spend your whole day just by making your butt sore and your legs all cramped up, you don't have sufficient energy left by the end of the day. To think about it, what the hell have you've been doing all day that makes you all worn out? Nothing but sit, and reading some mags (useful stuffs). Funny. I think i'd rather have something to do like 'site visit' or anything they called a 'real job', then i'd pretty much obliged and won't bugger on complaining. And i would have enough energy left.
Get what i mean?
I'd like to do something that i fancy. I mean, i agree not all work post you'd apply beforehand matches with your ideal/dream work description. Surely you'll be involved with other stuffs outside of your job. I guess that's how 'real job' is, you know. You don't necessarily have to do your area of speciality. That's how it works it Brunei. When you have a Degree or Master on your desired course, and suddenly when you're looking for a job here, boom! your job doesn't really coincide with your course. Get it? Perhaps this also applies to other countries...
But i'm not really implying that our country is lacking of commitment especially the government, no. But rather something indifferent from other developed countries. Maybe it's because the government does not have a vacancy with regard to your course, and there is quite a hell of a lot of competition out there. Imagine 2,000 graduates each year, all competing for the same post. That quite explains why 1/4 of us are doing what they're not supposed to.
I wonder how our country would strive for better in the future; let it be economical, commitment, technology, political, education system and all sorts. One human being surely are not able to change the country, and it would take at least 15 years to get to where Singapore are right now. We've only started to be civilized in the year 1984. It took Brunei 26 years to Singapore's status 10 years ago (just presumption...). It would take the whole generation, my generation to alter and amend our ancestors' work, and be on par with other neighbouring countries.
So what can we do? Presuming that not all of young Bruneians share the same thought - we ought to migrate! HAHA if you want to gain a hell of a lot of experience, spend 5 years struggling to settle down (health insurance, cost of standard of living), but want to get skills you can't obtain here, then go for it. Lets say you're a specialist of something - diplomat...but you'd have to work for Brunei in order to get that job...hmm scrap that idea. Okay, take marine biologist, urban planner, software or hardware expert, chemical engineer, architect ---> mesti ada tu! and all sorts of expertise. Work someplace where there's huge advancement of technology, political views, science and all, spend 10 years there or more, seek and absorb all knowledge you can get from other experts. Then when you have sufficient knowledge or experience, go back to your homeland and try to make a change - help your country. Not only you're one hell of great expert, but you're helping your own homeland by lending your energy, knowledge and skills you've obtained from other developed countries.
Of course, talking is nothing compared to actions. It's all easy to say. But when placed in reality, oh maaaan, we all struggle like crap. That's where determination comes in.
So what's your plan for the future? Have i thought about mine? Umm... i can't quite say for sure. I do have plans, but it's hard to say if it's a solid one.
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Aug
27
Scala & Kolacny Brothers. They're pretty much the group i'm listening to for the time being. One of their songs is the soundtrack of 'The Social Network' movie. And boy, i love the prelude. Search the song for yourselves. Just a question - do you think someone can be an architect eventhough they're quite suckish at drawing/sketching? How about instead of owning those traits - they're visionary. Get what i mean? They're a bit creative but have a hard time interpreting their imaginations into paper. Is that possible for them to be a successful architect? To open up an architectural company and set up businesses among high-profile clients in era? To establish themselves as a good conventional and contemporary architect? Possible? I hope so.
Because there are quite a few good architects that couldn't draw well, to name a few... and they're successful. They just have to be really damn good at imaginations, inventions, creating something out of nothing, being aware of every structural detail. And they have to be creative, of course.
Man, life is hard when you're lacking of something. I guess this is where talent comes in.
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Aug
19
I do still think working for the government doesn't really help you much on your experience. I've to say, our government is lacking of commitment to actually progress economically, and such diversity. Just look at the employees, they slack. Plus, the government's 'powerful' bosses does not walk-the-talk. How do you expect our country to progress when there's corruption here and there? For instance - if any of your relatives happens to be the boss of some department or ministry, or if they have the authority to make quick decisions, you're pretty much a lucky ass. You'd go from 'rags to riches' in just few phone calls. You know what i mean.
Forgive me for posting this, but eversince i've been attached under a government sector for the past 3 weeks, i've learnt that working for a government is more or less easy. No sweat, no gain, no pain. I mean, to compare working for a private sector, the latter offers you much pressure yet a handful of experience that no government sectors could possibly offer.
But i've to say, it's been relaxing working for the government, and i kinda like it, needless to say. It's wrong for me to complain much when there's nothing to do there, because i like the idea of having my own free time at work. So should i complain about not getting much work? No, i shouldn't. I should just suck it up, and savour the moment.
Hey, if i can't beat them, might as well join them.
Hypocrite? HAHA yes.
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Aug
02
When something in your life went well, eventhough there were few glitches here and there, but it all soon came to an abrupt end. No, it's not suicidal case. I'm speaking about your daily lives, your routine, your feelings and emotions. It all comes to an end, more like changed dramatically.You found out the truth about the whole thing, that what you had before weren't totally real, or not making any sense at all; it just sort of bumps you out. You're in a state of shock, denial, confused, and wanting to know the truth behind it.
But you can't. You won't ever find out the truth. You never will. Because the source, was and is never reliable.
It was all lies, made up from some fake puppets engineered to steer a couple of people's lives to living hell/absurdity.
For 17 months.
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Jul
25
A monumental figure, with structural holes. And so is human life.
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Jun
23
Whilst waiting for the second-half match between England against Slovenia to resume, i opted to speak my mind out about some things.First, France's failure to reach the group stages. Okay, i can accept that. But the fact that they drew and lost twice! That's cool! Haha what such poor performances. And here comes 'finger-pointing-i-blame-you' game. Their coach, Raymond Domenech refused to shake hands with the coach of South Africa at the end of the match, because the French team were defeated by the home nation team. And of course, the fact that they're out of the WC. Wooo loser coach, the whole 'i-dont-want-to-shake-hands' incident was caught on video, and all over YouTube. HAHA.
France and Italy are most definitely, the down-performers in this WC. Argentina are whoa cool. I think i'm gonna root for them (it's because Gonzalo Higuain is in it, if you know what i mean). And England is quite disappointing too. This includes Wazza Rooney. I think if the Three Lions fails to qualify the group stages, Rooney's life would the same as that in Nike's World Cup Advert - mows the field, cute sighs, shaggy beard/goatee, lives off by eating baked beans, and ponders over Landon Donovan/Clint Dempsey's Nike 40feet poster for the rest of his life (actually it was supposed to be Franck Ribery, but since the French are out, and thus so is Ribery. And since the American team was supposed to be a not-so-tough match, and Dempsey scored the equaliser that denied England a win, and since Donovan is such a fucking 'proud' ass, then that poster would be like rubbing salt in Rooney's wounds). But then again, i guess Rooney is under much pressure, the expectations of him to perform like a machine pretty much blunders his performances.
So far, there's quite a bunch of controversial red cards shown to players in this WC. I think it's unreasonable to certain cases. I don't quite recall similar issues were shown in previous WC. Biased.
Second, Seth Rogen plays the lead role of The Green Hornett. What a bummer. I just found out today. He's a funny guy, whose only supposed to play comedic movies. Well, i can't stand it, his face makes me 'not-want-to-be-serious'. The Green Hornett is an acclaimed story from comics (is it...? Haha), where most teenagers and young adults looked up to it since like ages ago (i assumed...). And Jay Chou is in the movie too. I hope it'll turn out okay, rather than a bummer.
The match has resumed!
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Jun
22
Alas, The Tudors have finally come to an end, after 4 successful seasons. Their season finale was aired on Sunday 20th June in the US. And of course, piracy has always been a good friend of mine - i've managed to download the finale, without having to wait for another 4 months for its official release on dvd. This is the time of the year where most YouKay students returns home. I oddly think whether they're capable to withstand the heat and humidity of Brunei's motherland anymore, after being proudly exposed to cool breeze of Europe for quite some time...i wonder if they even recognize the familiar dark-melangut-cawir faces of Bruneians anymore...i figure if they ever remember the typical slangs of Brunei anymore, with the likes of "antam tah kau ehh, ingat bapa mu punya jalan?!*viewers discretion advised* pukima!"
HAHA i just love over-the-top dramas. But of course, i don't doubt them. Surely, they're still uang bunai nyamuuu.
And of course, lets not forget the couples who were parted for quite some time - individual A remained in motherland, while individual B opted to study in YouKay. I bet once returned home, there would be some sort of active activities going on between those such couples...if you know what i mean. I guess, that's the immediate time where the sales our famous 'personal store' Guardian, skyrocketed to the roof. If you would go to the aisle where ointments and such are placed, there would be one particular section where 2 items of 'lifetime protection and assurance' be gone, well at least half gone. And that would be - condoms and pregnancy tests.
HAHA pardon me readers, but it wasn't intentional, i was merely having a humble session of amusement.
But awww, as i was saying, the parted couples would once again be reunited, holding hands, cuddling, pigang sana sini, showing their intense love to the world! To sum these up - Public Display of Assfection. I guess The Gadong Mallzzzzz ahakzzz would be crowded with teenagers and such within the next 2 months or so. I despise poklans. But then again, i don't think YouKay students would be labelled as poklans. Lets just say...'socialites'. Yes, 'underrated socialites'...much safer to say here. Haha.
But hey, i've no objections to couples, i understand that the painful discretion and long distance relationships can be such a pain in the ass. So hey, let them have their way!
I've no idea what that was all about.
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Jun
12
It's all about the World Cup 2010 fever. Everybody's been raving about it, talking about it. I think this year's World Cup is the most-hyped up WC ever, compared to the previous 2 WC. I'm rooting for England. That's probably...i don't know, i just feel like it. Though i leave my options open for Spain. By the way, Spain has a really cool home jersey. And i would like to own one. I've no idea why i'm telling you lot about it, it's not as if i'm gonna get one for my belated birthday anyway, so it's kinda useless to mention it here. But then again, it doesn't hurt just to mention it...who knows...you know...
I think i'm gonna stay up till late at nights, i mean till dawn, just to catch the WC. I mean, it's fun. Just as long as i've someone to accompany me watch it too, then it won't be a lonely match, let it be through online webcam or online chat.
Jun
07
Facebook is overrated. It's becoming like Friendster. I wonder if you guys still keep your Friendster's account, with that lame poklan's pose "pouting", or whatever that labels you as a noob. Like Bruneian poklans would say, "urengz keveru-veruan". I can understand if it's Twitter, because that program is solely functioned for updates 24/7. You lot can talk crap about your life there, without others getting annoyed by the constant so-called-boring-life-updates of yours. Seriously dude, but don't do those annoying-lame-"oh someone fuck me"-kind-of-updates on your Facebook status. Well, more like "eyh kn tid0r ku eyhzz, gudnite ppl".
What a loser.
Maybe, i'm not accustomed to that kind of thing, that's why i'm pretty much rude to you lot. But cmon assholes.
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Jun
06
I have lost my sense of blogging touch. I dont know what else to talk about. Out.
May
24
My Black Jack Diana F+ is no longer working, eversince minutes ago. Well, actually i had it sent to the Lomography Asia Company in Hong Kong to get it fixed, via Brunei's Icklebooks Company (this is more like an advert, they should pay me for this --> typical desperate line). I've to wait around 2 weeks to get it done. Unfortunately, im only 2 fucking asshole days late, from the 'replace your item to get new one' thing. That's a damn ass, given just 10 days to replace defects lomo. 2 damn days late! Believe that! I could've gotten a new Black Jack Diana F+ if i was within the period limit.
Sigh. I do hope i won't have to pay for the repair. I think i'm still on warranty.
I was hoping to get a couple of vintage pictures during my next to kin's wedding sometime this week and next week. It would be totally great. This is damn ass.
Now, this is what you called - A Bad Mother Fucking Timing.
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May
23
Such an epic football advert.All i can say is, wow dude.
Wazza Rooney looks kinda 'cute' at scene 1:11, haha bulat usulnya, rugged.
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May
22
Approximately 2 months lay off - long haul of vacation. I've got nothing to do. So, i'm thinking to get a decent job. Too good to be true huh? Well, believe it dude. I am getting a job. Still on the way though, haha.
I don't quite know who reads my blog nowadays. I feel like entertaining you lot *Adam Lambert's For Your Entertainment in the background* haha. Seriously, you'll be getting more of me soon, for the next couple of weeks or so.
I've almost reached 1 solid year of legal driving. I am yet to renew my license.
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....I dont know what else to say for now.
Haha.
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May
21
I borrowed my brother's film scanner, thus this enables me to scan films on my own, without splashing out 5 bucks at the lab shop.
But i've to say there's difference between the photo scanned in the lab shop and the one scanned at my home. Hey, the home scan is kinda cheap, i can't complain much.
Lab scan - nice, crisp colours.
Home scan - you can see bright lights at each of the 4 corners, due to the 'cheapo' scanner's inability to upgrade it's grain. And no, they're not vignettes. Oh by the way, it's lomography. I'm beginning to love analog camera.
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May
18
My countless tries of 'homography' using Diana F+. Countless. Fucking so many tries i'd tell you, till i'd almost gave up on lomography - my end products are such an ass, so far. It's like looking at an ordinary picture caught off from an old 1990s' Nikon camera. But nah, i'd still want to stick with this kind of thing.
Ive issues with its lens - i tend to cut off people's head due to parallax error between the viewfinder and the lens. Plus, im using a 75mm lens, thus it's like focusing one object 10x bigger.
In addition to that, im using the normal 35mm film like Kodak and Fuji, instead of the special lomography film, thus this explains the lack of 'saturation of colour' and 'vintage' look. Plus, vignettes were omitted from most of my 'countless tries' of photos, as im using 35mm film instead of a 120mm film. Lomography films are one heck of a price tag compared to the normal ones.
Lomography is an expensive hobby, other than golf (only if you count golf as a hobby, not a sport. Golf is a hobby, people) Haha.
38mm wide-angle lens, you're next.
Allow me to blabber more - Brunei shops does not have the privilege of 'cross-processing'. This surely would be really helpful if we're using on an E-6 film. E-6 film is also called slide film. Unlike the normal C-41 films, slide films produces such an amazing crazy highly saturated colours.
Oh lomography. My anticipation of vintage colours is the only thing that drives me, must not give up...
HAHA.
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May
16
Let me give you an idea on what i want to be 'when i grow up'.
I want to do this: may i introduce to you, a traditional home yet modern furnishings. I made it myself! *showoff*
Hahaha yeah, quite funny huh? Hey cmon, i like doing these stuffs you know. Designing homes. Iyeaaa.
The house up there, was part of my AutoCad Assignment guys, so it's merely a coincidence that you happen to come across this kind of thing, it's not as if i build that on my own free-will. Who knows, i might 'build' things like this again in the 'near future'. Pfttt HAHA.
But yeah, i find this thing fun.
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May
10
Here i am, sitting in a dark lit room, at 2.23 Monday morning. Yes, at the crack of dawn. My exams are over. It was dreadful. I am hoping for the slightest miracle to save my ass in my 2nd semester. Let the good aura come to me *applying The Secret Law of Attraction shit* haha.
I am supposed to be sleeping. Ive been yawning for more than 6 times. But then again, who needs to know that? You? Pfftt purrrlease. Anyways, i got to wake up early 'today'. Or else i would get my neck sliced off by some person, for being late again and again and again. Who needs to know this info? You? Pffftt purrrlease.
HAHA shit that's annoying.
That's two counts of shit for this post.
I'm gonna be quite free for the next 3 months. Holidays baby!
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May
08
Few days after the initial milestone.
And it's been a tough one.
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Apr
29
I want to post something bold.
The photo down there is just so fucking hot.
I wish i've that kind of stare, to melt you.
HAHA.
Tomorrow, another proud milestone.
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Apr
09
I'm coming home today, late night.
I can't wait.
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Mar
30
When you're emotionally and physically involved with someone, there's some sort of attachment between both of you. It's one thing that most human beings experience on the first quarter of their life. You just own this attachment and entanglement with that person, and you can't go away from it, because you don't want to. You cherish and adore that person so much, that it makes you sick just to go away, let alone to stop loving that someone. You just can't bear the thought of not-loving that person, nor hurting his/her feelings. Your love for him/her is so great that you'd dare to follow that person wherever they go. I mean, wherever, no matter how risky and deadly it may sound. It's more like - you'd die or choked to death without having your love one being part of your life. The memories created between both of you is overwhelming till it hurts inside just to let it slip away. It hurts to know that they're not in your life anymore. You're lifeless without his/her presence, without their love, without their care, without their compassionate gestures, without their assurances that he/she loves you still.
Relationships has its ups and downs. Loads. It's like going to Saturn, but you know it's impossible to reach. This is similar to real life relationships - you're in it, but it's impossible to stay really really really happy for so many moments without having quarrels. It has got to be few negativity in it. White has got to be black in it. Like Yin-Yang. That's a hardship really, to maintain a very stable relationship. All you want to do is to relinquish those happy moments and memories, and to keep it that way, to avoid all possible wrong-doings or whatsoever that could pain him/her.
I guess by the end of the chapter, human beings make silly and nonsensical mistakes in relationships. Yet, they keep on repeating it again and again. They rarely learnt from mistakes. Few people repent.
Chances after chances.
But, you've got to change. For him/her.
Your other better half has faith in you. He/she believes in you. Don't let them down. Don't make them have this doubts on you again. Convince them emotionally that you're not going to leave nor stop loving him/her. Show it. Walk the talk. Promises doesn't really work nowadays, as people break them easily. Instead, show him/her that you're serious on your love, that you and him/her has future together.
You're the crown jewels in my eyes.
Out.
Mar
28
The Tudors: Fourth and Final Season. I can't wait for the premiere.
Sexy.
Out.
Mar
24
I'm off the hook for assignments-reports tonight. I havent had a decent 'relaxed' time eversince Survey Camp kicked off which was during our semester 1 break. But now, phew i'm off the workload for a while, till tomorrow though. Haha alang-alang. I do think that Bruneians are more or less 'carcist' (yes that's not even listed in the dict), meaning they're judgmental when it comes to what type of car people drive. You see, i drive an old wagon, and everytime i'm on the road with that classic wagon, people tend to drive their nerves on me, such as accelerating their so-called-Merz to my bumper (sengaja supaya aku drive laju-laju), or turn their freaking heads when they pass by me on the right lane. Meaning to say, mentang-mentang krita buruk, dapat tah tu kan kurang ajar arah aku, pikir urang Indian kali aku ani. Auu tau ku krita ku is what Indians typically use, but cmon?! I may drive an old car, but i don't have much debts all around me, at least i don't have to starve myself in order to pay off monthly car loans, unlike most people who gave the 'ehh buduh urang krita buruk ani' look.
Okay, i may be overly judgmental about this, pardon me. But i'm just quite speaking my mind out.
All i'm trying to blurt out is that, please have respect for other drivers, regardless of their car type or age or race or whatever bitch.
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Mar
22
At times, i do think human beings are hypocrite. They dished negatively about others on their behaviors and qualities, when they themselves are typically similar. They dished others for being too proud of their achievements, when i personally think that they're jealous. Humans are hypocrite, and judgmental.
I think i am too.
I guess im just not aware of the situation.
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Mar
19
Hydraulics Test II will be heading my way tomorrow morning, 0800 hours, HK time.AutoCad Assignment I deadline tomorrow night, 2355 hours, HK time.
Rugged time reference huh?
I'm not quite ready for both, at all. AutoCad 57.8% done. Hydraulics revision 12.51% covered.
I still got a long way to go. And yet, here i am, typing nonsensical thoughts and listening to R.E.M's Everybody Hurts, rather than putting more efforts on those two important things.
Here's what i think - when someone is in love, they tend to 'blind' their friendship relations with his/her friends. Thus, this results in ' a decrease in friendship level to red bar' just like in The Sims. The less time they spend with their old/new friends, the more farther apart they get.
I can't be overly judgmental on this matter, for i myself don't really know whose to blame. I guess blame it on...
*Jamie Foxx's song "Blame It On" song plays in the background*... blame it on booze!
HAHA sucker.
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Feb
22
To sum up the events happened, that led to today, has been pretty much different and somewhat a jolt in the ass.
Somehow, i feel like typing nonsensical things here, update on life. Haha such a hypocrite.
I want to make a bet on myself to keep on blogging everyday till 28th Feb. I'll be sort of away for a week starting on that date, so i pretty much want to make a 'wish list' before im off to the jungle of woohoo.
It'll be my first camping trip. Should've been second. Eseh show-off. Haha. I missed out on OBBD (wooo you losers, i finally got the pronunciation right!) back in 2008.
And here comes the much 'awaited' photo. Haha *poot* yourself meips, such an ass.
(explicit content. nudity somewhere. if desperate, do search)
That was taken last year, back in end of Nov perhaps. Thus, my hair right now, i mean right at this very moment, is pretty much shorter than the photo above. Yes, shorter not longer. I cut it short again weeks after this picture was taken *does that shampoo thing like they always do in commercials* whaaaat...? i just felt like it, im tired of having the same hairstyle over and over again. So i opted for a change.
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Jan
29
Related to the previous post, i feel rather much like a hypocrite. But then again, who isnt?Teenagers talk about none other than their teenage life. And as for pre-adult categories, they explore their adulthood adventure, less drama but more action.
As most of you lot has claimed, life is unfair and depressing. It sucks the whole lot of you out of the happiness you should deserve. Yeah, the common feelings most people would say. Including me...was.
It sounds pretty much absurd and selfish to say this - things at the beginning are such a pain in the ass, but it'll get better in the coming moments. We all say we want to kill ourselves and run away from the sad things, but in the end, we dont really mean it. When we're depressed, we say nonsense things we're not supposed to. It's how nature works, i assume. It's like a cycle of life.
Hey, i know you will get through the pain. Sooner or later you would. Because i know you well, and i believe you. Be strong in the coming months. Keep your head-up. I know it wont be easy. But you wont be the only one going through it. You'll have someone to share it with.
Blogging is another form of saying messages to certain people, and its up to them whether they know its for them or otherwise.
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my naked life
